TADAAAAAAA

I have finally done it and reached my 25th post! And I cant tell you how tired and tiked off I am. Mostly Iam annoyed by the thought that most of my posts were pointless because they will not be probably read. But in other subjects Im off to study estonian. Bye!

Absoulute 0

I have reached the point that I call "absoulute 0". Its the point when I have absoulutely no idea or thought what to write or talk about so I start writing and talking about how I have nothing to write or talk about. And that is what Im doing right now. Logic?

So close, but yet so far

Writing so many posts in one go is like running a marathon. In the start its all fun and easy, somewhere in the middle you get really tierd and start to slow down, you may even collapse if your not careful and in when you reach the end and see the finish line you cant belive that your almost there but the last few meters are the longest and the hardest. Thats how I feel.

Sorry

I have realised that because of my state right now I have made a lot of obvious grmmar mistakes and I wanted to apolagise for that. And i hope you understand that I really dont have the time to correct every post. Maybe some day later.

Another quote

So, I am writing another quote in this post. Is it because I want to get away with a short post or is it because in the slight chance that you actually read all my posts I want you to understand me and the principles by what I live better. So the quote is by a person that form me is one of the wisest and is a person that has been through alot so he has a lot to teach everybody.
"Everything inife is like snake venom, to less of it and its pointless and just tastes bitter, too much and it kills but get the right balance and it becomes a powerful cure."
S. Oganesjan

Just noticed

I just noticed when I was writing the last sentance in my last post that I really am writing absoulutely everything that crosses my mind and these last posts are actually just my thougths quite randmoly. I find this great because I have wanted to do something of the sort but never really had the time but know I can do it and its like 2 in 1.

The end is near !

This should be my 18th post or something like that, I dont know because I have lost track. When I think that it will be all soon over I start to gain back my will to live another day. Because the thought that its all almost over (the year) is music to my ears and motivation to my brain and fingers to keep writing anything that comes to my mind.

Oh god!

I just read my posts and found that most of my posts are like Mrs. Kappel would say "absoulute bull****". And I am probably deleting them after the teacher (yes I am talking to you) has corrected them because i dont want to emberass myself when people read this ****.

Sorry!

OK, I admit that in the last few posts I have maybe overreakted with my expressions ( doing thein´gs beyond the realm of normality and humanity, etc) but you also have to understand me. In this year I have been beaten tortured and batterd by school and other things and this is the last stand for me this year (not quite still have to study for 2 tests, weeeee) and I am tierd and sometimes write a little too emotionally.

Very interesting !

I jsut noticed that all the posts that I have made in the year 2010 are made today. I guess that some people would say that I should be ashamed for myself for being so lazy and that it is my fault. Do I agree? No, after the year that I have fought and struggled through, doing everything that was in the realms on normality (and sometimes beyond that) the last thing is someone calling me lazy and yes maybe it is partially my fault for leaving this for the last evening but I font take all the blame on me.

Music, my saviour!

I just thought of how painstakingly hard and boring it would be for me to write these posts if it were not for the magic of music (and the occasional cup of black tea) to keep me awake and thinking (I hope). So another man-made wonder that helps me get hrough these fires and flames. And I really do hope that I survive this night !

What should I write about ?

As I am progressing in writing my posts I am starting to lose ides what to write about. I dont want to write very random things but sometimes I find myself doing exactly that. Like for example now. But I hope that I will get some more ideas soon or else I will be stuck writing these entries for the rest of the night.

Lcky 13!

So this should be my 13th post in my blog. This marks the halfway point forme. Most people think of 13 as an evil number but I think the absoulutely opposite, I think that 13 is a very powerful and great number. And I am very lucky and proud to be born on October the 13th.

The quote of the day

I have decided to make this entry a short one and express my feelings with a quote from a great man.
"The most noblest of pleasures is the pleasure of understanding"
L. da Vinci

Tough to find an Idea

This year we were suddenly announced that in the 110th grade we are to conduct a reaserch on any subject and then we need to "defend" it. I find the hrdest part is to find myself a suitable thing to reaserch. I have pondered this subject for quite some weeks now and still cant come up with anything. But i am not giving up....

Why is it so ?

So I find myself asking myself why is it so when I try to do everything "right" by studying hard and getting good marks more and more just keep coming back and biting me in the a**? I mean I havent gotten the chance to go to sleep before 1 o´clock in the night for the last few weeks because I do everything the teachers ask us to do and when I go to school everything just manages to get messed up. But on the other hand another person who does not do anything until the last moment and bearly somehow gets the same result and maybe even a better one than me. Something is not right....

The big exam

So the so much hyped by the teachers end of the year english exam is over. And to be honest it was exactly as easy as I had expected. But I am still disappointed because my terrible english fate followed me to the exam. As usually I made some absoulutely pointless mistakes (like leaving out the last t in that) that cost me abaout six points, and guess what six points is aproximately the amaount of points I needed for a 5. I am cursed...

I hope the summer is going to be better than the winter !

So in long last after a very long and cruel winter the snow has melted and the sun is starting to shine. Because this winter was exceptionally cold I hope that the summer will be as eaquely hot. My favorite thing about the summer is that the days are getting longer. That means no more coming home from work or school in total darkness and I can actually play football in the evening and see the ball. So everything should be getting better now.

It should be over!

It seems like all the teachers are trying to kill us in the last few weeks while they still have a chance. I mean in most schools students are just sitting in classes waiting for the bell. But for some crazy reason I find myself still studying through the night for something I dont really understand. These last few weeks have been longer than the whole year...